Updates from Hell

"Sometimes you just gotta lose this battle in order to win the war" - I honestly forgotten where I read or heard this from but this is what I am doing now.

I notice I have not been bloggin about anything since 24th Feb 2009. I was too busy with work and family. During the course of being busy, I also notice I have lost a few friends along the way. Losing friends along the way is sometimes the way of life as none of us are perfect people and most of us tends to 'abuse' our friends when we are in a foul mood.

My blood pressure has been staying at 150/100 most of the time. Doctor has given me alot of Medical Leaves but I am afraid I can't take anymore of it due to the fact I am still not a confirmed staff until 11th November 2009. You guys won't believe how many type of pills I need to swallow now! Medicine plus my vitamins, its like 7 pills each day! Yuck, but what the heck, I didn't take good care of my health and now I'm paying the price - literally speaking.

Doctor has advice me to cut down smoking, fatty food (which is incidentally my favourite foods!) eg. Nasi Lemak, KFC, MCD, Bak Kut Teh and etc.. Also to do more exercise plus eating alot alot alot of things i hate most - vegetables and fish! Ok, this advice arises from the fact that is proven clearly in my latest medical results. I am in the VERY HIGH risk group of getting stroke or heart attack. Sigh, and you wonder life just begun at age of 30!

But, my problems at work is also one major contributor to my current health. Honestly, I regretted that I left my previous job and this 'bold' move I made was the biggest and stupidest decision I have ever made. I miss my old job and my old company (even china-man company has better benefits!!!). I have been having problems with my direct boss since the 3rd week after I joined them. We are always on the opposite end of our direction and views. She is good in presentation and theories but operationally (i mean "physical operations"), she is not well-versed in it. But of course, I am also flawed in many other ways which is presentations and theories but my strongest point is running operations.

We have a new HOD since last July and the 'in-fighting' between me and my manager has reached his ears and also our CEO ears. We were called in for a meeting and thrashed out all our differences. I was being pointed alot at fault while the HOD seems to be more interested in standing by her side. I was told to 'tone down' my voice and work with her. For God sake, I never planned to work against her! Just that she doesn't hear my opinions on operations and take them into consideration while she's drafting all her cute lil' presentation slides. The final straw for me was she posted out the RFQ without even discussing with me on the operational matters. I was dead pissed off when that happened and emailed very 'politely' asking for a copy of the RFQ to go through and promised her I won't comment nor give any opinions but just to follow whatever is in the RFQ. Also, I told her very clearly if this RFQ fucks up the operations, I will not be responsible for any of it! I guess I made her thought about it that why she forced me to join in the negotiations with the 3rd Party Warehouse provider and give my insights on the operations view in the eyes as a manufacturer. So, now I have no choice but to get involve and at the same time have to figure a way how not to put her presentation down / rfq request down and at the same time save her 'face' infront of 3rd party.

Then comes all those silly request like 'find me this guy / that guy / that company phone number', 'upload this file / that file to the server' and many other mundane task which I am sure our clerk can handle. But the biggest was when she threaten me with "You go or I go". I blew up again. But this time, I kept my cool. I forced whatever anger or emotions I had deep into my heart and hold my breath till I turn blue. I cannot lose this job at this time. I need the salary to keep my family afloat and I had to keep calm. That's what I told myself. From then onwards, I decided to give in to every of her fancy and whims. I had to do it. I had to be a sissy instead of my old usual self where I command and things moved.

Never in my life I felt so humilated. I didn't felt being humbled but being insulted and humilated. I had to lose my dignity in order to survive. I hanged myself up to being step at and being ordered around without reasonings.

But this is life and this was what my many 'mentors' have been telling me a long time ago. "You will one day need to be insulted and humilated because you need to survive. But take it in your stride, if you pull this through, you will come out stronger than before." I am lucky to have so many 'mentors' as well as good friends. Even friends I made in my new company such as Lim Wee Choon is always there for me to let me burst out to him and also advices me when I feel so frustrated during working hours. He is my most understanding friend I had in the company. Infact, he is the only one I trust in the company to be a friend. The rest of my colleagues are just colleagues to me cuz we don't talk to each other that much.

I better stop here now. There are many more other things for me to follow up. Life is never great so please go smack that person if he/she says life is a wonderful and great thing to have! :P Just kidding guys.

Ya all have a great week ahead and if any of my indian friends follow this blog of mine, I want to take the opportunity to wish you guys "HAPPY DEEPAVALI! MAY YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ALWAYS BE GREAT HEALTH AND WITH LOTS OF WEALTH!"

Dawn Of A New Beginning

Life is recently very much alive for me. I have been given many task to manage and to straighten up. It is a wonder that so many things to attend to eventhough business have drop by 50% in recent months.

I just had my management meeting this morning. Whoa! My boss isn't really in a good mood but lucky for us, we did not get a full-blown scathing on our face. My boss is actually a nice person when he's in a good mood. And he is a man of his words because he has proven to me by giving me whatever he has promised me including my Assistant Manager promotion.

I guess I have my hands full now especially when I must deal with all those drivers who only thinks of their own survival yet still wanna be lazy. I felt extremely betrayed yesterday by a few drivers which I thought they can understand that whatever situation we are in now, we are in as a team. Unfortunately, they aren't thinking with their brains. Sigh, I guess I will need to be the bad guy until I leave this company.

Oh yeah, I will be very likely to leave my current company once I get the results of my medical checkup. I have sighted the letter of offer and god! this is the first time I see an 11 pages odd long offer letter. This wasn't a very easy decision for me to make especially with current economic downturn. I have so many things to take into consideration and finally I guess this will be my boldest move. I need the raise in pay and also taking a risk by joining up with this new company that I will have the 'pioneer' staff status as well as having a shot at the Managerial position to improve my resume status further.

Yeah, some people might say I'm considering this move as monetary move which is very true but there is also other motives such as putting all my skills and experience to the biggest challenge and succeed in proving to myself that I have what it needs to surive in this cut-throat corporate world. Even though I'm forgoing my promotion as AM in my current company and joining the new company as Snr Executive (same as my current position), the pay is way much higher than what I'm getting current and with such bad times looming, I doubt my current boss will be able to match and counter-offer me to stay back.

Well, wish me luck guys... Cuz I will need it as my life will be alot tougher for the next 1 - 2 years because I have chosen to join a newly setup company and there is alot more things to be done with compare to my current company.

Raja Petra SURE GOT BALLS!

The below is an excerpt I gotten from my email and I think this is what you call.. A TRUE MALAYSIAN ! Read on...

Justice My Ass' Raja Petra says
If you love this country you should help circulate this mail to allyour friends who are MIC and MCA members, if they are not too busyenriching their own pockets and make future generation of theirchildren, their grand children and their great grand children suffer.For 50 years the Chinese have given their vote to MCA and for 50 yearsMCA have pass their vote to the Malay, yes Malay in UMNO for a littleself benefits. MCA members have no balls to speak for the Chinese andyes MCA in Johor who have NO Balls to speak against the UMNO. Where doyou think the Malays come from Indonesia lah and what ever happened tothe great Chinese Warriors from Yunan that saved these Malays fromSiamese attack called Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat and princess Hang Li Po??,disappears from our children history books that we used to read in ourschool days (ungrateful UMNO).

Only Raja Petra will speak for the Chinese and the Indian.
PLEASE PASS THIS INFORMATION TO ALL YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.KEEP PASSING IT UNTIL A NEW GOVERNMENT TAKES OVER THE COUNTRY.

Subject: Raja Petra says, ' Justice My Ass !! '
Here's ANOTHER Reason NON-Malays Should NOT Vote UMNO in Any FutureGeneral Elections and Bye-ElectionsThursday, June 05, 200816:39

Read here from M'sians Unplugged ...Average Non-Malay Malaysians and NON-Malay Bumiputras have LITTLEfuture for their children and their grandchildren IF they still voteBarisan Nasional which allows UMNO to remain in Government - it wasbefore, it is today, and it will be tomorrow.

Excerpts from article by Raja Petra Kamarudinby

Raja Petra Kamarudin'Last month, Umno Johor said that the greatest mistake they made wasin giving the non-Malay immigrants citizenship in August 1957. Nowthat they have been given citizenship they show their ingratitude byvoting for the opposition.

Yes, non-Malays, even those born in Malaysia , are immigrants. And,being immigrants, they must vote Barisan Nasional. And if they do notvote for Barisan Nasional then they are ungrateful.

Yes, voting is your right. This is your right according to the FederalConstitution of Malaysia. Malays can vote for whomsoever they wouldlike to vote for because the Constitution allows them to do so.Malays, therefore, can vote for the opposition.

But, if you are non-Malay, then you must vote for Barisan Nasionalbecause you are an immigrant. If you vote for the opposition then youare a traitor, you are ungrateful, and it was a great mistake givingyou citizenship in 1957.

Tun Dr Mahathir's father was born in INDIA. But Tun Dr Mahathir canvote opposition. He can even oppose Umno like he is doing so now. Infact, he can even become the Prime Minister. He is not an ungratefulimmigrant who should be sent back to India .

Tian Chua, however, can't oppose Umno. Tian Chua, whose family settledin Malaya long before the Portuguese came in 1511, is an immigrant.And if he is not happy and if he opposes Umno then he should go backto Chin a .

And Umno Johor regrets giving Tian Chua citizenship in 1957 but doesnot regret giving Tun Dr Mahathir citizenship.

Why? Because Tun Dr Mahathir is Muslim while Tian Chua is not.But if Tian Chua circumcises and takes on the Muslim name of Musa BinSusah and marries a Malay woman, then he need not go back to Chin aand Umno does not regret giving him citizenship in 1957.

The Malays have a very warped view of justice. Malays practice twostandards of justice. There is one standard for the Malays andanother for the non-Malays.

And 90% of the tax is paid by the NON-Malays and 10% by the Malays,says Tun Dr Mahathir.
But 10% of the scholarships must go to the NON-Malays and 90% to the Malays.

And when they propose to change this to 40% for the non-Malays and 60%for the Malays, the Malays raise a hue and cry. And they call thisjustice. And they say Islam is about justice.'

JUSTICE MY ASS, MAN !!!!

Isn't the above is very well written and bravely said. We should heed his advice and words. I don't mean that we should blindly follow anyone that oppose the government but we should always be sensible and consider everything before we make up our mind on the verdict.

I have done many 'considerations' and I only come to this verdict.... WE NEED A FRESH GOVERNMENT and FRESH MEANS NO MORE IDIOTS AND BS POLITICIANS WHO ONLY SPEAK FROM THEIR ASS INSTEAD OF USING THEIR LOGIC AND BRAINS!

"Aikzhou Italian Salmon" Recipe

I was going through the supermarket in Jusco Bukit Tinggi, Klang yesterday to shop for some groceries. When I pass the fish section, I just couldn't take my eyes of the fresh, beautiful and wonderful salmon fish that they were cutting up to fillet sizes! Immediately I craved for some of that yummy fishy meat! Thus, buying 2 pieces of it which burnt around RM21.90 into my wallet. Heheh... but lemme tell you this.. it is really worth it!

I got it home and threw the salmons into the freezer cuz I plan to cook it tomorrow morning for breakfast. Around midnight I took the salmon out from the freezer and put it into the fridge to defrost slowly.

This morning I woke up around 8.30am and started my journey of dreaming to be a gourmet cook! Wakaka... I tried to find recipes for my salmons but all of them are either too confusing or too delicate (ok ok ... maybe its my fault.. i don't recognise some stuffs like DILI!? what the heck is DILI). Besides, i'm a poor guy whose home doesn't have an oven to baked those yummy salmons. Hahaha....

So I had to improvise on my salmons. And finally I came up with this personal and yummy recipe.. hehe.. this recipe is truly original.. Hmm.. maybe I should name this recipe as Aikzhou Italian Salmon. Hahaha.. yeah.. sounds nice.. haha

So, my friends, below is the recipe for you guys to try if you want it.

"AIKZHOU ITALIAN SALMON" RECIPE

INGREDIENTS
2 pieces of salmon fillet
Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Coarse Black Pepper
McCORMICK Italian Herbs Blended
(contains Marjoram, Thyme, Rosemary, Savory, Sage, Oregano, Basil)
McCORMICK Basil Leaves Blended
Fine Salt ( I use organic salt )
1 Whole Orange (I used orange cuz I don't have lemon for my citrus flavour)
1 whole tomato.
1 clove of garlic (smack flat and chopped into small pieces)
Some lightly salted butter or saltless butter
Fresh Organix Lettuce

SEASONING METHOD

After the salmons have been defrost properly (make sure you don't defrost it under running water as that will wash away the juices in the fish) just run it quickly through running tap water to clean it, just a quick one will do as you don't want the fish meat to absorb anymore water. Then used the paper roll to dap it dry.

After doing that, cut your orange into half and squeeze half orange juice onto the salmon meat. Then you sprinkle a little bit of coarse black pepper and salt. Mix in the chopped garlic as well. Then you slowly massage the mixture into the salmon meat. Slowly and lightly rubbing the salt and coarse black pepper. Once this is done, then you sprinkle the McCORMICK Italian Herbs Blended onto the fish. Once again, rubbing it slowly and evenly onto the salmons. Put as much as you like as this McCORMICK Italian Herbs Blended is what will make the salmon smells very good during cooking!

After all this is done, pour the whole thing into a plastic sealable bag and put it into the fridge for 30 - 1 hour (depending on how much you want the taste to be absorbed).

COOKING METHOD

1 hour have passed. You take out the earlier pre-mix fishy. Heat up your non-stick pan and put in 2 tablespoon of Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Wait for it to heat up but not until you can see the smoke coming out! Make sure you don't over heat the oil. Once the oil is properly heated, put in 1 teaspoon of butter (saltless is better as you already have some salt on your fish!) The reason for this is to keep the butter from burning up and turn the whole oil black color.

Once that is done, put in the salmons to cook. REMEMBER! to use medium flame or else your salmons will overcook and get burnt. Once you see your salmon meat turn color 3/4 already, its time for you to pour in some of the juices from the earlier seasoning. Let it simmer in the juice with medium flame for 3 to 4 minutes then flip the salmons to the other side and switch of your gas to let it cook in the contained pan heat for another 2 minutes. While waiting for the other side to be cook by the heat, sprinkle some McCORMICK Italian Herbs Blended and McCORMICK Basil onto the topside.

After all this is done, scoop it up (without the garlics and the other stuffs.. just the salmons will do). Serve it while hot!

Dressing For The Plate

After your salmon is cooked and done, take out your lettuce and peel it into leaflets. Wash it cleanly under running tap water. Chopped it up and put it nicely on the plate you wish to serve the salmon. Prepare the salad dressing mixture by using 4 teaspoon of mayonise, 1 1/2 tablespoon of tomato sauce. Add tomato sauce to your flavour as some like the dressing sourish a lil. If over sourish, you can always add some fine sugar into it.

Pour the oil away from your pan. Wash cleanly and reheat the pan again with 1 table spoon of olive oil. Put into another 1 tablespoon of butter once the oil is properly heated. Cut your tomato into half and put the tomato face downwards (the soft side) onto the pan for searing it. Sear the tomato until its softer from its original hardness.

Scoop it up and serve it onto the plate together with the lettuce and salmon.

Preparing Time : 1 hour
Cooking Time : 10 minutes

Well.. thats it folks. My own recipe and I was so famished that I forgotten to snap a photo of it. Hahaha.. very sorry guys, so no photo of my Aikzhou Italian Salmon recipe. Hehehe... I hope you guys enjoy the recipe as much as I enjoy cooking it and chow-ing up into my stomach!

Political Chaos In Malaysia

I'll never understand all these idiots. Firstly, the people elected them is because the people trusted them and yet these monkeys don't even have half the brain to stop and think if this is what the people want.

They are nobody if not for the party manifesto and objectives. They were elected because of the Political Party manifesto and not because of their personal fame. These people is taking our votes as a game and they think they are free to do anything they want after the elections.

Why should the malaysian public take this in their stride when they have been betrayed!? We are no fools nowadays whenever it comes to politics. The young generations from all races are fully aware of their political views and opinions. We are educated people and we expect the politicians to treat us with respect when we chose to vote them into the office!

I've been disillusioned by the power of political parties. And now, no longer I chose to remain silent. Eventhough I have yet to be betrayed by my current politician and political party choice in my own state, I wish to make this known to the politicians all over the country.

I do not give a darn for whatever reasons you can come out with to justify your betrayal to my trust in you and your political visions. You were chosen because you are representing the political party's objectives and manifesto. Please do not make yourself look like a fool. You can come onto the papers and say due to irreconcileable differences, you are leaving them and joining the other party. But your story will just remain a story. The fact is still facts. The people will no longer trust you and will brand you as a coward dog. If to me, I would consider these cowards, worst of than a dog. At least a dog is still loyal to their master no matter what happens.

With this current turn of events of politicians jumping 'ships' at a time where financial burdens of the people is swelling up, I could only have one suggestion --> MIGHT AS WELL THIS COUNTRY BE RULE WITH A DICTATOR! At least no more power struggles and these cowards can concentrate on how to get the country back on its feet!

Darn you politicians who even have the thought of betraying your voters! THIS IS NOT A GAME!